தொகுப்பு - December, 2006

Sick

Sick of you. Sick of me being sick of you. Sick of analysing. Sick of being polite, diplomatic, nice. Nice is not a nice word.

Sick of thoughts. Sick of doubts. Self doubt. Pessimism. Sick of rationalising. Rationale does not apply to the irrational.

Introspection? Introspection’s for those who can think. I should stop thinking. Start doing.

 Sick of waiting. Though I wait of my own accord. Sick of inaction. Though inertia’s a great friend. Sick of what I am viewed as. Though I care nothing for your approval. Lesson in contradiction? Maybe… Maybe not. Contradiction is a word that means nothing to me. Just the way I am. If you wanted conformity, you should be looking into cookie cutter moulds and production line designs. Not me.

I do not want to validate the percentages. I am an anomaly. And I like it that way. And no, sick isn’t only a physical state…

Hmmm… year end – ’tis the season we hear of handouts…

Talk has been about the 2% GST hike. Like people did not know it was coming. Talk was also about the ‘Economic Restructuring Shares’ – like people did not already know they were gonna get screwed over … again.

Compared to most other places, people of this tiny dot I call home can be really apathetic. Then again, I am the embodiment of apathy – especially when it comes to the running of the country/company/home – whatever. So who am I to bitch. Work is winding down – though the next week promises stress a plenty… something like the final efforts of a spawning salmon, I suppose. People are rushing to finalize meeting schedules for the next half year and dig around for some data which shows a promising outlook so we can all pat oursleves on the back for a job well done and let our hair down.

I am just looking forward to the day my boss will be leaving for his vacation. Have 6 days of annual leave left for the year – don’t know if this can be carried forward to the next year. At least when the grouch has gone off for his vacation, I can make plans to use my leave.

Oh, and a shout out to a new acquaintance/friend – CA who is in town. Though I am unable to see you in person, I think I should at least thank you here for the gift you got for me! You really shouldn’t have! Anyways, I hope you had a great visit, and managed to get the things you wanted to get here. :-)

Back to the daily grind…

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